Put it in your mouth

Its been awile

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 06:32:27 GMT

Some things you can never let go. But why would you want to. This is life, and everything that has happened are memories, learning experences, and finding myself. Is it so wrong to not let certian people or memories go? I dont think it is. Sometimes i admit it is necessary. But others not so much. Becasue its the momories that i have that keeps those people in my life, the want to make new ones with them. Fuck. I don't know what im talking about. My thoughts are all over. But thats really no different than any other day. You know what really bothers me about life, and todays society? I just hate ignorence; theres really no excuss for it (though theres exeptions with everything). but really, thiers librarys and the internet and what not to educate yourselves, if not educate yourselves gosh atleast make sure you know what your talking about... Damn. I also can't stand when people cut them selves short. I honestly think that everyone has the potential to be great. Why settle for anything less? Be great in somthing, be a great son/daughter. Be a great friend. Do something great, for cring out loud. God, just be yourself if nothing else, which isnt easy with the way things are. Gosh just doing that you have my kudos. Another thing, since when did they stop teaching you to create your own ideals and opinions at school? It discusts me, its like everyone just all of a sudden got lazy. I know that to create you own ideals and opinons you need to have some kind of knowledge but why stop there? It just seems more so often than not, i see people living by others words and theorys. I guess its ok if your ok with that. But gosh, i have nothing wrong with people admiaring others words or thoughs even, but gosh if you believe in it use it to create your own. Develope your own fucking opinions and shit. Im done ranting. Maybe i'll atleast be able to sleep now.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 02:05:11 GMT

I want to find a man that i can sit around and listen to Bob Segar with. Someone thats real manly, ya know? Sits around drink'n a beer dissucing beards and sports.But I don't want a man thats all crazy about money. But he's got to have determination and a sence of humor. And he'd have to talk alot, but not like the 'get to know you talkin' more like whatever you he was thinking about talking. And he would have to like my friends.

Well now i know what i want. Thats a start.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 01:49:26 GMT

A lot of things are fucked up as of now. Its crazy how fast things can change. I honestly don't know how im going to keep a high head.
But you know. When shitty things happen, it makes you appreciate the non shitty things in life. Like the people that make your stomach hurt from laughing so much 20 minutes after your a crying mess. Well at least its that way for me.
I love the people I have in my life. I really do. I would be a damn mess without them. And I hate to say it, but I've lost/am not close with alot of people that used to be in my life. But I have new people that I've built a close relationship with. So I guess in with the new out with the old. Right? I hate to look at it like that. To be completely honest, I'm done worrying about all the petty shit. I just want to do what makes me happy. Call it selfish. I don't give a shit to much time has already been wasted.

Springs in the air

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 01:21:50 GMT

It's been so nice out side. I love everything about it. I could lay in the grass all day using the world as my pillow, each breath sweeter than the last. hah. Nothing could make my life better right now, exept maybe a doobie and someone to listen to my rambaling.

It feels good to know you.

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 03:21:05 GMT

I want to hop the next train to Nashville to see david. I miss him more than anything lately. He knows about my life and he understands me. He understand that the majority of the time i don't want to talk (with most people). But i can talk for hours with him. I miss laying in his bed telling childhood stories. I miss being drunk dancing in our underwear in my kitchen to tasteless music. I miss playing monoaply at 2 in the morining. I miss having somone to talk to about whats going on with my life without having to explain everything.

I can't stand this damn town anymore. I can't stand most people anymore.

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 02:39:51 GMT

I feel like i have no control of my life as of lately. - I dont like it.

dammmmmmmmn

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 23:35:27 GMT

im lovein life.

not everyone can be a gangsta

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 03:30:02 GMT

Say it again Ray Charles..

"It's 5' a clock somewhere"

Know what im say'n?

i love it.

Happiness is out of grasp.

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 02:37:58 GMT

I broke today. The tears wouldn't stop. Even now feel like i'm on the verge of tears. I've been trying so long to find something worthwhile. Nothings worth while these days. Nothing has a good enough reason anymore. I don't know what the point to my life is anymore. I'm not suicidal, i may sound like it, but i'm not. I've just never felt this alone.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 03:26:00 GMT

Hello 5 o'clock.

i've missed you.

: ).

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 17:21:43 GMT

I have yet to go out side, but i really hope we got some good packing snow. Becasue i have wine, and i want to build an iglu. Thats really all i want.

I hope you all are doing well.

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 15:54:49 GMT

Lately, people have been bothering me. i'm so sick of hearing people complaining about what they don't have, while taking forgranted what they do have.

Oprn your eyes people!

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 22:20:36 GMT

It was bound to happen sooner or later.

His words are ring in my ears from this morning. "Sarah, what the fuck is wrong with you. You're going to fucking talk to me." My reply stayed the same. "Nothing! I have nothing to say to you." But he was persistent, and i was stubborn. So I sat on the steps listening to the anger in his voice as he kept repeating, "Sarah whats wrong with you? You're going to talk to me!." The more he yelled the faster my tears fell. Still I said nothing. When it was over I walked up the steps holding the tears in, I didnt want the people up stairs to know that I could be broken. I sat of the roof for hours. I let the tears out, and waited for the wind to dry my face before I came back.

This isn't what I want.

-So im sorry if im distant with everyone. Don't take it offensively. I need to think about things. And I don't want any distraction.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 23:43:39 GMT

I've knocked on the door, why not push down the wall?

I'm going to have to put alot of thought into it.

Is it really what i want? I wish i could answer that.

Thu, 09 Feb 2006 04:44:54 GMT

Things are really complicated and confusing right now. I have alot more stuff to think about then I thought. But for now i'm going to keep it simple.

Maybe i'll be able to think more clearly if i spend a few days solber.

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 22:02:48 GMT

You scored as Postmodernist. Postmodernism is the belief in complete open interpretation. You see the universe as a collection of information with varying ways of putting it together. There is no absolute truth for you; even the most hardened facts are open to interpretation. Meaning relies on context and even the language you use to describe things should be subject to analysis.

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Postmodernist

88%

Existentialist

75%

Cultural Creative

69%

Materialist

63%

Idealist

56%

Fundamentalist

50%

Romanticist

50%

Modernist

44%

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Mon, 06 Feb 2006 05:22:27 GMT

I'm not to sure how i feel about anything right now. I'm completly numb. When did this happen?

I'm losing it.

I used to be considerate, I am now selfish. I used to be caring now I don't give a fuck.

Sometimes I don't think its all worth growing up.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 04:21:13 GMT

Yeah.....thats how exited i get after Mac and Cheese.

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 02:37:40 GMT

Is it nessecary to know someones past to build a future with them?

Personaly I don't think it is. Now is all that matters.

I want to know everyones opinion on this.

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 23:02:34 GMT

Top of the world folks

top of the world.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 15:51:50 GMT

I have to go out and buy a dress before 1, because i have to leave to go to Plymouth tat 1 to go to a wedding. And everyone in me house is in a pissy mood. I'm tring my best to not let it get to be, but i think it to late.

I need a drink.

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 22:49:38 GMT

He once gave me something to look forward to. Turns out he was a lesson to be learned.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 03:40:19 GMT

Today's the anniversery of Melissa's death. I don't think anyones going to see her grave.

Who's up for a road trip to Oklahoma for spring break? I would perfer it to be someone I'm close with. No offense to anyone.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 03:15:50 GMT

I'm disgusted with how a lot of people are acting at mott. - I feel like I'm in middle school again.

Fucking grow up.

Green

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 01:20:44 GMT

I realized today that I'm never going to forget him. This brings tears to my eyes. I don't want to think about him anymore. I've said everything I could say- he still wont talk to me. Theres nothing more that I want than to forget it, move on. Forget about him.

Bottom line _____

I'm not ok. So don't listen to me when I tell you that I am, becasue I'm lieing. I need more time.